Thursday, March 11, 2010

decision





Part II

i have asked my good friend about her.

she noticed that she has became even skinny after the breakup.

she had made the decision that it was a "no"for us and she chose over her 3-years indian Muslim friend.

i knew that we have both suffered.

i myself lost 2 kg too.

my friend also noticed that she has been thinking too much lately on her last night and was not her usual self.

i was surprised to hear this and now that we have part, i could not say too much.

my friend also surprised to hear that i will be accepting not only her but her two kids as well.

she asked me whether i took them as a whole.
i replied affirmative.

i intended to ived with her and her two kids as well.
i have bought a flat.
but she has rejected me 3 weeks ago.

she has in fact perferred her indian muslim.

it was difficult to be in the middle of her two best friends, and i have forced her to make a decisive decision.
i did not like things hanging in the air.

i myself also made a huge bet as well and lost heavily.

i have accepted her decision and glad that it was all over for us.
however,i was still much in love with her.

it will stayed on for a long while.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

the first meeting





after 18 long days, i have finally met her.
yes, after 18 long, long days like eternity.

it is good.
yes, it is good.

finally, after this first meeting, we can really placed the things done and get going.
i am at rest that she is really getting well.
i stop worrying about her.

she recovered much faster than i have assumed.
as usual, when she spoke, she lowered her head and asked me, "how are you? how are you?"
i stood in front of her, smiling and did not know how to answer her, but found my voice and said," i'm fine, thank you."

it is good to see her face to face.
she was beautiful as ever, in my eyes. she is still the one who rejected me,and now speaking to me.

ah. i missed her of my very first thought.
how i wished to be with her again.

my love still with her, and i still loved her as ever.

later, when i has completed my work, and able to talk to her and even joked with her too.
she also has put on 1kg from 41 kg to 42 kg.

it is good.


the good old times.

but i knew it is a goodbye, and i gave her my carved comb of mine to her, asking her to pass to her son.
i really liked to kiss her and hug her, but could not do that.

she accepted it and told me she did not know whether her son would like it or not.

alas.

i do miss her.
i do miss her much.

met her again the next morning after my off day and she was smiling at me when we wished her good morning.

it is good.

Part II

i have asked my good friend about her.

she noticed that she has became even skinny after the breakup.

she had made the decision that it was a "no"for us and she chose over her 3-years indian Muslim friend.

i knew that we have both suffered.

i myself lost 2 kg too.

my friend also noticed that she has been thinking too much lately on her last night and was not her usual self.

i was surprised to hear this and now that we have part, i could not say too much.

my friend also surprised to hear that i will be accepting not only her but her two kids as well.

she asked me whether i took thme as a whole.
i replied affirmative.

i intended to let her lived with me and her two kids as well.
but she has rejected me 3 weeks ago.

she has in fact perferred her indian muslim than me.

i have accepted her decision and glad that it was all over for us.
however,i was still much in love with her.

it will stayed on for a long while.

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Breaking up






So you and your spouse or ex lover are no longer together.
Are you the type that lingers on licking on old wounds over and over again?
Or are you ready to accept the demise of the relationship and take life by the horns.

If you still are reliving the past then chances are you haven't accepted that your relationship is over and denial has grabbed on to you so hard that your vision has become distorted. It is very difficult and painful when a relationship ends.

Even though a relation may end, it doesn't mean that it is the end of the world or the end of you. But here are some tips for moving on when your relation has turned sour.

*Accept that the relationship is over.

Accepting that the relation has ended is probably the hardest thing to do.
It hurts very much to hear someone tell you they no longer want to be with you.

You can hardly believe what is happening. Denial sets in when you start to believe none of this is really happening. You may cry, scream, and even become angry. These emotions are normal and you need to go through them. But is is very important not to linger in denial, anger, and sadness to long.

A good way to dealing with the stress of breaking up is to talk about it. Talk to one of your close friends or a family member you can trust. But don't overload yourself or you friends with the break up. Overloading your friends with it will make them keep their distance from you. No one wants to hear the same thing over and over again. It also slows down the healing process. The best way to come to terms with something to face it and deal with it head on day by day. Accepting that its over will become easier everyday.

*Take responsibility for your part in the end of the relationship.

It's easy to blame your ex partner for all the things that went wrong in the relationship. But it is never any one person's fault. In order not to repeat the same mistakes , you have to learn what caused the problems in the first place. Ask yourself some very important questions. Is there something that you could of done differently? What would you do differently? Where you paying attention to those warning signs about your partner? Own up to your part in what went wrong in your relationship.It's important to learn from your past experience. It makes you a wiser and maturer person.

*Forgive yourself and your ex partner.

Even if your ex partner was the worse person in the world, you have to forgive him or her. Forgiveness is not for the other person,it's for yourself. Forgiveness helps you to let go of the hurt and anguish that was caused by your partner. It frees you from holding on to things you need to discard. It doesn't make you forget those things that took place, but it does become easier when you release the baggage. We all do things we regret. Even if you did some things in your relation that caused it to fail, you have to forgive yourselves as well. We all make mistakes. We have to accept our mistakes and own up to them before the forgiveness process can even begin. You cannot heal if you continue to beat yourself up over something you cannot change. Learn to be forgive.

*Give yourself time to heal.

There is a saying. Time heals all wounds. But you have to allow it to. Don't make the mistake and jump into an new relationship too soon or spend to much time being angry and depressed over what took place.

Allow yourself time to heal from the break up.

Use your time to reevaluate and nourish your mind, body and spirit. Breaks ups can take a lot on you. Take time out for yourself and get to know who you really are. Once you stop blaming yourself for what happened, you will realize that everything happens for a reason. Time marches on and wounds do heal.

No one said a breaking up was easy or that healing is a fast process. But it will happen if you allow it to. Take one day at a time and you will see a new horizon ahead. If you need to seek professional help, take that step. There nothing wrong with that. You can find support in your friends and family if you need it.

What is important is you get through your ordeal healthy and you've learned something. Moving on will get easier from day to day.

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

be happy


why sad, be happy!!

Monday, March 01, 2010

the first sms





after my night shift yesterday and supervising the contractor on dismantled the existing old lourver and replaced new ones, i have a thought on her and text message to her to inform her tonight will be her first night shift and asked her to sleep well as it will be busy tonight.

after i have sent her message, i did not expected any return sms. normally she will read it and ignore it.
but at 12.28hrs, she replied to me,"ok po,u too!"

i was dead tired but managed to text her that i was busy on yesterday's night shift and asked her she was fine.

she replied at 15.35hrs that,

"u rest, m vry good, evrything doing well on my part."

i missed her so at around 1800hrs, after i have read her sms, i text her,"
miss na miss kita,miss na miss kita"

she did not returned my sms.

alas. but it is good that she finally returned my text message.
it has been since 17th February that i have not received any sms from her.
it has been 11 days since.

well, now i could really relax and sit back.

and take a break.



glad that she was doing well on her part.
i may ask her when i meet her on her night shift someday.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Do you love me?





Mahal mo ba ako?



Oo, mahal kita.



Mahal na mahal kita.



Mahal mo rin ba ako?



Mahal din kita.



Mahal na mahal din kita.



Mahal mo ba talaga ako?



Paniwalaan mo ako.



Ikaw ang mahal ko.

11 days after





it has been 11 days after she has sent me sms that she did not give me another chance.
i was glad that i was able to get over it quickly, and went to work.
i have assumed that i would have problems in coping the daily life of mine after she has left me.
i still alive, thanks god who has a sense of humour.
really have to thanks god.

i felt much relief, rather than sorrow.
there are so much pain, although i was happy together with her.

i was glad that i have made the decision in letting her go.
i also let her chose her destiny.

in the end, she is not meant to be.
well, she could have a good wife to me and i will be faithfull husband.

could have..

as time passes by, the pain got bearable and i usually thought of those good times, instead of the pain.
ah..those days

Thursday, February 25, 2010

tears


of course, i still feel the pain, not as much as last week.
still, there are tears in my eyes.
still cannot accept that she is gone forever.
yes, gone forever.

it is something that i have not thought of it when i was with her.
i like to see her everyday, but couldn't.
alas.

she has told me that i will regret it for the rest of my life.
she told me that i did not know what i was doing.

i asked for forgiveness, and for another chace to be with her.
in the end, i lost the betting and lost all.

i did not eat well, and let the hunger went on and on.
it was like torturing myself for making such a decision.

and she did not fare better than me, too.

she was moody when i meet her on that day.
alas.

things changed.

i really hoped all will settled down and back to normal.
i certainly hope so.
i certainly hope so.
i certainly hope so.

i will be meeting her when i will be doing my only one night shift with her.
i do not know what will happen on that day.
i just do not have any idea.

but one thing i knew that it will be slightly different from what i used to do.
let's hope everything is alright.

i do not like to think too much. i cannot see the future.
when it comes,it will comes.

she has decided and is is better for me and for hers as well.

romance

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

deeply fell in love



Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent,Honest,Sweet.
You are friendly to everybody, Don't like conflict
Because you're so cheerful,
Fun people are naturally attracted to you,
Like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:

You are a true romantic.
When you are in love,
You will do anything,
Everything to keep your love true


Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships,
Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like.
If you meet the right person,
You will fall deeply.
Beautifully in love


Your views on education:
Education is very important in life
You want to study hard
Learn as much as you can

The right job for you:
You're a practical person
Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Knowing what you like to do is important
Find a regular job doing just that
You'll be set for life


How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure
Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you d
Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image
The way others see you
Not what you wear

tree

goodbye kiss


forever,those wonderful times that we are together for such a short of period, i was madly in love with you, those will be forever in my mind.

they are mine alone,no one can share. no one but you.

never, i have such a heart-warming feelings before.
never.

you have given all to me, but i have disappointed you.
my apologies.
my truly apologies.

goodbye,my friend,goodbye.

Mwahh...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

1st





after last seen her 10 days ago, i finally got to meet her when i came to work after my LNY's holidays.
it has been a long, long, long 10 days that we have not seen each other.
i could remember that we had a pleasant breakfast in the morning.
never we felt so good before.


still, i would like to see her how is she doing all these while.
is she okay? is she coping well?
there are so many questions i like to ask her.

i have heard it was busy on her night shift, and that could divert her attention to work.
for us, i have so free and have been thinking all these days.
i have also lost weight too.
people commented that i have not only lost weight but also there are so many white hairs.


the separation has been hard on me.

the first meeting is extremly important and i could see how our relationships are.
so, i have been waiting for these while for my precious 1st meeting.

alas.

i did see her at her normal place,but..

she did not give me any chance to speak to her. no chance at all.
furthermore, she was moody, full of worries.

that was unlike her usual self, being jovial and cheerful.

for the first time, i have not seen her smile.

it was heart aching and i did not dare anyhow to approach her.

i was waiting for a chance, waiting for the right moment.
i saw her colleague went in the rest room, and she also went in as well.
that was the only chance i have and i seized it, knowing well it will be gone forever.

i took this tiny opportunity when she went to the rest room to speak to her colleague.

we opened the door, and walked straight to the room, and wished her happy new year.
i reached out my hand and shook her hand.

i still have the same feelings and i could feel that she also think of me, too.
the same old feeling when we are together.

she waved me off and i shook hands with her colleague.

an i quietly walked out the room andback to our work.

it is perfectly clear that our relationship has ended.

she did not like to be hurt again and her precious kids as well.

i shall not see or speak to her the way i used to have.
no more playing with her hands and hersilk hairs, joked with her.

it has been hurting for both of us,as she like to break off her relationships with her two boyfriends but could not. they needed her too.
they also could not bear to part with her.

for me, i loved her so much that i have to let go.

it has been only a week, but for me, it was more like a year.
when i thought of her, i could not help crying, but have to hold back my tears.

i have to let it all go and move on.

alas.

Monday, February 22, 2010

gone


after speaking to my sister, i felt that i have made the right choice.
she told me that her things are several strings of problem that tied her down.
it was too much complicated,she said.

after i have told her the long story cut short, i was relieved to have a good listener.
finally i can let it go.
finally, it is over.

glad that i have made the correct decision in the end.
my instincts is right on the spot.

gone with the wind, man, gone with the wind


franklyy speaking, it has been difficult for me.
difficult to let go of her,especially i knew that i will not have another girlfriend.

well, it is good that the thing was finally came to past, and i was glad that i have made it through.

had i go on, it will be the most difficult to get myself out from the quicksand.
difficult, i have to admit.

alas.

Friday, February 19, 2010

should have


if only i did not made the biggest gamble of my life, she is still yours.

if only i delayed it for another day or two, she is still yours.


if only i have endured a bit longer, she is still yours.

if only i hanged on a bit longer, she is still yours.

if only time can turned back, she is still yours.

but i knew it is mission impossible.
impossible.

alas.


i still madly love her.
still.

not because she will be the last one, no.
no,
really,
i truly love her.

you see, when she is with you, you did not treasure her.
only when she is gone, you will cherish this relationship.

however, it is good as gone.

sign.

she is such a plesant girl.
why i did this to her?

why?

she told me that i will regret it for the rest of my life.
yes, i did.

i will really regret.
she is right.

all i can say is:
sign...

dreamer



i have thought that i will not feel the pain.
suddenly, just one thought of the decision she has made few days hit me hard in my heart.
and suddenly i found myself crumbled again.
crumbled into pieces and more pieces.
and i cried and cried.

i have thought that it was over, but in fact, it was just the beginning.
the beginning of the worst to come.

she was a professional, really is.

i am still at the beginning of the long and unwinding road to full recovery.

i still have a long way.

i went for an hot afternoon jog instead.
before, we did push-ups to our maximum.
we tried to make my body tired.
tired of thinking and divert our attention to other things.

it will not be easy.

i still dreaming.
because i am a dreamer.

i still dream of spending the rest of my life with her.
but it pained me that i have to share with two of her good male friends who comes before me.

it will not work in the first place.
neither in the future.

she had so many things to take care, so many.

and i often wonder.

maybe i should have to step into her world in the first place.

i am just a naive and thought of nothing else but she and me only.
and also two precious kids, age 16 and 12 years old.

i have met them and accepted them.
they also accepted me.

But i am completely and totally wrong indeed.
i have failed.
i have failed.

normally i did not give up easily.
but this time, the more i love her, the more i like to give up.

pain and love came together at the same time.
i was puzzled, never in my life felt like this before.
never.

alas.
what is done cannot be undone.
love is over.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

undone things





i still have undone things: her annulment.
i have contacted a law office in metro manila and Atty Maria was kind enough to e-mail my queries.
she is good and efficient.

but i face one big problem.
i cannot call my ex-girlfriend because she refuse to answer my call.
i just can send her text messages so that she can ask her eldest daughter to reply.

the annulment acceptance is 150,000 peso and will last less than a year, depending whether her husband. when he opposed, the period will be longer and of course, fee will also increased.

i think her husband will oppose.

i have text message of the law office's e-mail address and hope her daughter can reply soon.

i should have done this long time ago when she is still my girlfriend.

now after this, all have changed. difficult to get the things done.

i have gambled and lost the bet that she will come back.

she did not.
i have to accept it and be a good loser.

as i thought of the wonderful times with her, they are our memories that will remained printed in my mind for the rest of my life

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

let go all



LET GO ALL.
my heart is now empty.
i do not feel any pain.
for there is no existence of me.

i have not been sleeping well for the past few days.

time for a good and comforting rest.

i have let go and let God.

OH YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

surprise



i have thought i am the only one to love her.
i have been thinking this as she told us to be free in her friends.
so, i let her do what she like to do.

then a surprise when i visited my friends who was also her manager.
she told me that her best friend came to her working place to look for her.
it happened few times already, and her manager assumed he was her husband.

actually it was not the case.
he was her best boy friend working in her former place.
she has already left the place.


her relationships with this special friend was more than ordinary.
it is extraordinary.

no wonder she likes not answer phone or returns my sms when she is angry over a small matter.

i was a fool, man.

it is humiliating.

also, she also had another boyfriend who bought clothes, jewelleries and NTUC voucher.
he has been with her for three years.

he was divorcee, he was married to flippina and had two boys.
he was hardworking guy,working in Jurong island, and neglected his wife.

he has proposed to marry her, but he has no plans as he was a Indian-Muslim.

he waited for her to convert to his religion.

but she was strong in her Catholic faith.

he is waiting for her to change her mind.

but i can see that she also loves him dearly.

i also do not have absolute no control over this matter.
she does what she likes to do.

the end





of course, i am sad.
extremly sad.

i have came prepared.
but still, the parting is no simple matter.

it ain't.

it is not supposed to be like that.

but hey, she has made the difficult decision, and i have to accept it, gracefully.

be a good loser.

i bid her goodbye and sent all my best wishes to her.

i will always love her, that's what t told her.

i will wait for you

it is a "no"






she has sms at 0453 hrs,

"i've tot it over and over and m sorry to say tat my answer is no.
its better tis way..take care goodbye."

goodbye

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

the biggest gamble in my life



when you loves a woman,you let her go.
if she comes back, sshe is yours forever.
If not, she was simply not meant to be.

i have faced the truth:
it will be my biggest gamble i have ever bet in my life.

and i prayed to the precious lord that please let her comeback to me.
i begged him.

she has not replied to my sms yet.
nothing.
dead.

my heart wandered ups and downs.
definitely not a good feelings.

i felt that i am useless, cannot do anything.

except to wait for the answer when she sms or call me.

we have to wait patiently.

the long wait



it happened on 14th February 2010.
she told me that she will give an answer.

i asked her to give one more chance.
one more chance to be with her.

i told her not to let me hanging in the air, waiting for the answer.
it is terrible feeling, as i have been there few times in my life.
it is more like suffering.

as it is now on 16th February 2010 at 1654hrs, she has yet given me the answer.

it will one of my longest wait of my life.
the longest wait.

each seconds, each minutes, each hours and each days are like eternity.
it never ends, never.

i also hardly slept last night, hardly.
i have been thinking, when will this ordeal end?

i do not know

i also ate less. no appetite.
my weight dropped too for the past two days.

i do not know what to do, as all the flower shops are closed for LNY.
i have to wait till tomorrow.

even then,it will be another wait never end, too.

alas.
sign.

should have considered the consequences of making a serious mistakes.

i sent her sms,no reply.
yesterday's night too: no reply.

it is like nothing has happened, a drop in the vast ocean.

no response.
dead.

it meant that i have done something terrible wrong to upset her.
i asked for space, and here she really gives me alot of space and alot of waiting too.

when will it ended?

just give me an answer.

very simple YES or NO.

alas.

Monday, February 15, 2010

it is not a simple matter, afterall






i have thought it will be a simple matter of parting ways to our girlfriend.
but after i have sent sms to bid her goodbye, we regret afterwards.
i felt pain, sad and sorrow.

after i have contacted her, she told things that i suddenly realized that i did the wrong things.
i still loved her even more.
i could not bear leaving her, and the rejection was too much to stand.

i seek for forgiveness she accepted. when i asked for a chance to be together, her initial answer is "no".

suddenly i felt i have lost everything in my life,i did not know how to face our colleagues when i return to work after the holidays.

alas.

luckily she changes her mind and let her consider and will let us know.

it will be the longest wait for my life.
i do hope i can be with her again.

but at the same time, i have to withstand the pain of losing her.

well, in the meantime, i have to wait.

thing hanging in the air was no good for the heart.
annother pain, and it is hurting.

i often wonder love and pain are together. i felt love and also pain.

it was not what i have expected in the first place.

alas.

in the first place, i have thought of myself, and did not think of her feelings.
when she told us that she could not believe that i have sent her sms, it made me realized that i have done the most serious things in my life.
i could lose her, forever.

and what she said is right too: i may regret it for the rest of my life.
alas.

instead of solving problems, i am creating more problems for her.

i have made the mistake and she forgave us.
when she gives me another chance to be with her, i will surely treasure it.

that's the things happened after i have lose her in the first place.

alas.

by now, she could have awaken from her night shift.

she is still weak after her tiring night shifts.so far, i have text one message in the morning at around 11am. i told her to rest and sleep rest.

the most important thing was that i have takne back all the sms i have sent to her and offered my deepest apology.

hope for the best as i could barely hold my tears.

Friday, February 05, 2010

let go

Thursday, February 04, 2010

what is love about





when she did not responded to our calls and sms, i was really confused and angry at the same time.
instead of thinking too much at home, i went for an evening jog.
a long and slow one, to clear our thoughts and our mind.

it has been a different jog each time we moved past the trees and smell the fragnance of the forest.

by the end of jog, i have realized i have forgiven her for what she has done for us throughout the day.

it also must have hurt her too as much as i did.

alas.

i was so wrong. i made numerous mistakes that i was awore of it and did not take note of it. i was so ignorant.

in the end,i knew something, something was amiss, something was not right somewhere.
i found ourselves being hurt over and over.
i simply did not know what has happened.
i have not experienced before. such pains, helplessnes and agonies.
i have found ourselves lost and being under control.

i could not move what i usually did.

now that i have let go,i found myself back what i was supposed.
at long last, i have been a fool for those day that i did not know.
alas.

no matter what has happened,i have encough of pain.

it was not supposed to be like that.

THE GAMBLER









KENNY ROGERS - THE GAMBLER

On a warm summers evening, on a train bound for nowhere
I met up with a gambler, we were both too tired to sleep

So we took turns at staring out the window at the darkness
The boredom overtook us and he began to speak

He said, son I've made a life out of reading people's faces
And knowing what the cards were, by the way they held their eyes

So if you don't mind my sayin', I can see you're out of aces
For a taste of your whiskey, I'll give you some advice

So I handed him my bottle, and he drank down my last swallow
Then he bummed a cigarette and asked me for a light

And the night got deathly quiet, and his face lost all expression
Said, if you're gonna play the game, boy, you gotta learn to play it right

Chorus:
You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em

Know when to walk away and know when to run

You never count your money, when you're sittin' at the table
There'll be time enough for countin', when the dealin's done

Every gambler knows that the secret to survive is
Knowing what to throw away and knowing what to keep

'Cos every hand's a winner and every hand's a loser

And the best that you can hope for is dyin' in your sleep
And when he finished speakin', he turned back for the window
Crushed out the cigarette, faded off to sleep
And somewhere in the darkness, the gambler he broke even
But in his final words I found an ace that I could keep

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

thinking

i have been thinking lately.
i have assumed that i have found a right one.
that was last year.

a right one for our company when we grow old and someone to look after.

at least there is someone. i did not like the ideaof living alone when we are old.
we knew that by that time,most of our friends will get lesser and lesser as each days passed.

now it is the moment. the moment of truth.
i will see whether she will be the one, indeed.

she was right: i did not know her much.
the more she revealed herself, the more we found a great differences between us.

well, indeed, i was just thinking of ourselves in the beginning and it was an one sided affair, afterall.

because she has been keeping to herself, not to reveal her feelings too much.

we could only guessed.

in the end, it will be like gamble.

Monday, February 01, 2010

moon


our dearest moon

Friday, January 29, 2010

brothers


highly reccomended!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

respect


it says all

Sunday, January 24, 2010

kissing


the passionate kiss.
the remomance.
the eternity.
those days.

Friday, January 22, 2010

legion


the judgement days.
day where you will be judge.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

jump


release yourself, jump

lonely road


just when i thought that i have did it.
thenext moment,it was a long hard fall, back to earth.
another long and loney road ahead.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Friday, January 15, 2010

let it go


we have a jog this evening.
although our legs are tired and had cramps, we jogged the longest route.

now we are feeling much better, already.
unlike before,it was so pain that we could not think well.

we have thought too much.thought too far away.
we are lost by our thoughts.

free our minds,then it will free our heart.
let it go. treasure what we have.

what is love



think i finally understand what is love.
it works both way: you love her, can't bear a moment of separation.
the pain of love as well.
you cried for no reasons at all.

you really missed her, really, really.
but you know and you know it cannot be.

the agony,

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Thursday, December 10, 2009

life goes on





What is the worse that can happen if the PAP loses 10-20 seats?

Will people really miss those part time PAP MPs with little to say on critical life-affecting issues?

the answer is obvious.

Too many jobs were created which led to an influx of foreigners to fill the positions too fast, too soon.

The momentum has now ground to a halt because of the economic crisis.
But if the pace picks up again, Singaporeans could end up being outnumbered by foreigners in the workplace.

there could be more than three million foreigners working here by 2030, forming half the workforce. That will jump to almost 10 million by 2050, making up 75 per cent of employees here.
It is a frightening leap from the current figure of one million, or 36 per cent of the workforce.


Of the 235,000 jobs added in 2007, six in 10 went to foreigners. The ratio rose last year, with foreigners taking seven in 10 of the 222,000 new jobs.
This means that almost 300,000 foreigners flocked here to take up jobs in the past two years, pushing their population past the one million mark for the first time.

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Health Minister Mr Khaw Boon Wan had apologized

on his blog in an entry dated 22 November 2009:

The chemo overdose errors in KKH were human errors. They should not have happened, but they did. We are sorry for the mistakes and are all saddened by the incidents,” he wrote in the opening paragraph.

Mr Khaw also commended the Yip family for their magnanimity in forgiving the two pharmacists responsible for the error.

“We all make mistakes but we must readily admit them and learn from the mistakes so that they do not get repeated.


To err is human; to forgive, divine. To be able to forgive requires a higher level of wisdom and generosity,”
he added.

nothing is heard from KKH CEO Prof Ivy Ng, who is incidentally the wife of Education Minister Dr Ng Eng Hen.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

maximise growth at any cost, at the expense of singaporeans





Singapore has the third-largest share of foreign-born persons in its population of any country, after the United Arab Emirates and Kuwait.

It is inevitable that foreigner numbers will continue to swell, but the key is how many the country can accommodate and how fast it wants to grow.

PAP govt had went overboard in trying to maximise growth, at the expense of singaporeans.

For the investments that were brought in, the criteria were more to generate growth.

This has led to more low- skilled and cheaper foreign workers on work permits.

Their presence, in turn, has depressed the salaries of low-skilled Singaporeans.

It is not a new trend, and PAP govt policymakers are aware of it,



government labour reports show that wages of workers such as cleaners and labourers have stayed stagnant or even declined in the past decade, while the wages of higher- skilled workers rose.

Singapore had the biggest gap in both years. It also had one of the fastest widening gaps: In 1996, the top 10 per cent earned 4.9 times the income earned by the bottom 10 per cent; in 2006, that proportion had increased to 5.7.

The PAP govt has not done their job well, people has eyes to see.


cheers to our great leader who made thw wrong policies while they are aware of it.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

the need to change




Japan can, why not singapore.
not only for our generation, but the next and the next and the next.

Now is the time to change.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

two-thirds of s'pore PR applications are successful





Singapore PAP govt gave PR like free candies..

Deputy Prime Minister and Minister for Home Affairs Mr Wong Kan Seng said in Parliament yesterday that an average of 46,300 people are granted Singaporean permanent resident (PR) status every year for the past eight years.

From 2000 to 2008, an average of 74,500 applications for permanent residency were submitted by foreigners each year. Of these, an average of 46,300 applications were successful which translates to two successful applications out of every three.
MM Lee said earlier that all applications are carefully vetted so that “highly qualified” foreigners will become PRs.

However, some of the new PRs include beauticians, language teachers, clinic assistants and administrative personnel who are not quite considered “qualified” as exemplified by the case of
Chinese national Zhang Yuanyuan who got her PR in only 2 months while working as a Chinese teacher in a private school.


In his reply to Mr Chiam See Tong’s question about the number of PR applications received, granted and PR statuses renounced,
Mr Wong said that PR applications have been increasing steadily in recent years.


As of June this year, there were 1.253 million non-residents, but only 533,000 PRs. In total, foreigners now make up 36 per cent of Singapore’s population, up from 14 per cent in 1990.


An online furore over Chinese national and
Singapore PR Zhang Yuanyuan proclaiming her loyalty to China on TV
was even reported in The Economist.

Despite concerns on the ground at the direction and viability of Singapore’s liberal immigration policy to import foreigners en masse to make up for the population shortfall here,
the ruling party is adamant that there will be no wholesale changes to it.


In the past, immigrants were concentrated at the top or bottom of the jobs ladder, performing work that Singaporeans could not or did not want to do.

Today, foreigners compete on almost every rung. Some, like geneticists, bring in useful skills. Others—it is feared—displace local skills and depress wages at the bottom.


PRs enjoy the benefits of citizenship without all the responsibilities, such as national service for men (first-generation PRs are generally exempt).


High immigration has coincided with a widening income gap. Singapore’s Gini coefficient, a measure of inequality, rose from 0.444 in 2000 to 0.481 in 2008—higher than in China and America.

it was the latest sign of resentment towards incomers and evidence that immigration is becoming the city-state’s dominant political issue.


they did not care about people and aimed for economic growth at all cost,including downgrading singapore citizen to play second fiddle to PR.

cheers to our great leaders.

Monday, November 23, 2009

nightmare


one of our Favourite Tim Burton's movies.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

they are liars


In the past, immigrants were concentrated at the top or bottom of the jobs ladder, performing work that Singaporeans could not or did not want to do.

Today, foreigners compete on almost every rung. Some, like geneticists, bring in useful skills. Others—it is feared—displace local skills and depress wages at the bottom.

our great leader told us that they will create jobs for us.
in the end, we are played out by them.

they are liars.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

social unrest : can we all get along?





In 1990, citizens made up 86% of Singapore’s 3m people.
Today, the share is 64% of 5m-odd. More than one in three people are foreigners (permanent residents, known as PRs, and non-residents).

In the past, immigrants were concentrated at the top or bottom of the jobs ladder, performing work that Singaporeans could not or did not want to do.

Today, foreigners compete on almost every rung. Some, like geneticists, bring in useful skills. Others—it is feared—displace local skills and depress wages at the bottom.

PRs enjoy the benefits of citizenship without all the responsibilities, such as national service for men (first-generation PRs are generally exempt).

High immigration has coincided with a widening income gap. Singapore’s Gini coefficient, a measure of inequality, rose from 0.444 in 2000 to 0.481 in 2008—higher than in China and America. The contrast between the glitzy downtown and the “heartlands” is glaring, and more damaging in tiny, dense Singapore than it would be in a big country

And the dominance of the ruling People’s Action Party means that in Singapore—unlike many countries—anti-immigrant sentiment cannot easily gain a strong political voice.

Expect no drastic policy changes.

it was the latest sign of resentment towards incomers and evidence that immigration is becoming the city-state’s dominant political issue.

cheers to great leaders for their good policies.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

they did not care


so what they said..not a big deal.

the higher earners pay is peanuts

Monday, November 09, 2009

they want the casino because of themselves





these casinos are not built to benefit ordinary Singaporeans.
the govt will gain huge revenue from the casino revenue.

they will leave the churches, volunteers and social workers to cope with the problem(shit) it generates.


that's how they did the things!

cheers to our great leaders.