let ourselves go and move on

it was another heartache

it was another heartache as i fell in love with one myanmar nurse at st luke hospital and the whole scene was the exact copy when she met her husband 4 years ago.
she has a two-year son and soon she will be pregnant again.
i simply overwhelmed by her eternal love for the past 8 weeks.

well, it will take me another 3-4 months to heal myself.

dear Pale...the letter which cannot be send..

23^rd April 2014

Dear Pale,

Never in my mind that I have has thought that it come to past.

I assumed that it would be just a short stay of 4 weeks when we first arrived on 7^th march 2014 and rehabilitation so that mother could walk and go home after the recent fall.

It was just a thought, a very simple thought, really.

Never in will it cross my mind that I have expected had it happened to me: falling in love with you.

Seriously, I did not expected to happen in the first place and I also did not truly know how it come about, too.

I just simply do not know.

Or maybe it was just me.

But I do remember the time I fell in love the same old feelings was there: love and pain at the same time together and the yearning and longing to see you.

There is a period of time where I did not get to meet you that I missed you very badly indeed. Although it was just 9 days, to me it was a very long time like 100 years.

Then I realize that I have fallen madly in love with you.

However, I do know that you are married with a loving husband and has two-year son and soon you will be pregnant. You have a good family.

I have to stop myself from falling in love with you: it was not right.

So, here I am, wishes all the best for you, your husband and your family.

Take good care.

Yours truly,

Song

heartache

5 more days and we will be parting.

alas. we will miss you indeed.

i miss you so much

after 9 days, i finally saw you and it was a century to me.
oh, how i missed you so much.
i shook my head in disbelief: i fall in love, yet again.
and i have to pull myself out as i knew that it will a never-ending story.
i have to let myself go.

tears

oh how i love you

i told myself to let go of her, but my heart said another thing:
oh, how i miss you.
oh, how i love you.

well, i have to let myself go and move on.

the last e-mail

the last e-mail from brother's company as he was being retrenched.
i sent the last e-mail and knew that that day he has sent his last e-mail to me.
i have been texting him messages and suddenly it was gone.
i always asked for advice and now i have to depend on myself.

i love u