it is not a simple matter, afterall

i have thought it will be a simple matter of parting ways to our girlfriend.
but after i have sent sms to bid her goodbye, we regret afterwards.
i felt pain, sad and sorrow.

after i have contacted her, she told things that i suddenly realized that i did the wrong things.
i still loved her even more.
i could not bear leaving her, and the rejection was too much to stand.

i seek for forgiveness she accepted. when i asked for a chance to be together, her initial answer is "no".

suddenly i felt i have lost everything in my life,i did not know how to face our colleagues when i return to work after the holidays.

alas.

luckily she changes her mind and let her consider and will let us know.

it will be the longest wait for my life.
i do hope i can be with her again.

but at the same time, i have to withstand the pain of losing her.

well, in the meantime, i have to wait.

thing hanging in the air was no good for the heart.
annother pain, and it is hurting.

i often wonder love and pain are together. i felt love and also pain.

it was not what i have expected in the first place.

alas.

in the first place, i have thought of myself, and did not think of her feelings.
when she told us that she could not believe that i have sent her sms, it made me realized that i have done the most serious things in my life.
i could lose her, forever.

and what she said is right too: i may regret it for the rest of my life.
alas.

instead of solving problems, i am creating more problems for her.

i have made the mistake and she forgave us.
when she gives me another chance to be with her, i will surely treasure it.

that's the things happened after i have lose her in the first place.

alas.

by now, she could have awaken from her night shift.

she is still weak after her tiring night shifts.so far, i have text one message in the morning at around 11am. i told her to rest and sleep rest.

the most important thing was that i have takne back all the sms i have sent to her and offered my deepest apology.

hope for the best as i could barely hold my tears.

let go

what is love about

when she did not responded to our calls and sms, i was really confused and angry at the same time.
instead of thinking too much at home, i went for an evening jog.
a long and slow one, to clear our thoughts and our mind.

it has been a different jog each time we moved past the trees and smell the fragnance of the forest.

by the end of jog, i have realized i have forgiven her for what she has done for us throughout the day.

it also must have hurt her too as much as i did.

alas.

i was so wrong. i made numerous mistakes that i was awore of it and did not take note of it. i was so ignorant.

in the end,i knew something, something was amiss, something was not right somewhere.
i found ourselves being hurt over and over.
i simply did not know what has happened.
i have not experienced before. such pains, helplessnes and agonies.
i have found ourselves lost and being under control.

i could not move what i usually did.

now that i have let go,i found myself back what i was supposed.
at long last, i have been a fool for those day that i did not know.
alas.

no matter what has happened,i have encough of pain.

it was not supposed to be like that.

THE GAMBLER

KENNY ROGERS - THE GAMBLER

On a warm summers evening, on a train bound for nowhere
I met up with a gambler, we were both too tired to sleep

So we took turns at staring out the window at the darkness
The boredom overtook us and he began to speak

He said, son I've made a life out of reading people's faces
And knowing what the cards were, by the way they held their eyes

So if you don't mind my sayin', I can see you're out of aces
For a taste of your whiskey, I'll give you some advice

So I handed him my bottle, and he drank down my last swallow
Then he bummed a cigarette and asked me for a light

And the night got deathly quiet, and his face lost all expression
Said, if you're gonna play the game, boy, you gotta learn to play it right

Chorus:

You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em

Know when to walk away and know when to run

You never count your money, when you're sittin' at the table
There'll be time enough for countin', when the dealin's done

Every gambler knows that the secret to survive is

Knowing what to throw away and knowing what to keep

'Cos every hand's a winner and every hand's a loser

And the best that you can hope for is dyin' in your sleep
And when he finished speakin', he turned back for the window
Crushed out the cigarette, faded off to sleep
And somewhere in the darkness, the gambler he broke even
But in his final words I found an ace that I could keep

thinking

i have been thinking lately.
i have assumed that i have found a right one.
that was last year.

a right one for our company when we grow old and someone to look after.

at least there is someone. i did not like the ideaof living alone when we are old.
we knew that by that time,most of our friends will get lesser and lesser as each days passed.

now it is the moment. the moment of truth.
i will see whether she will be the one, indeed.

she was right: i did not know her much.
the more she revealed herself, the more we found a great differences between us.

well, indeed, i was just thinking of ourselves in the beginning and it was an one sided affair, afterall.

because she has been keeping to herself, not to reveal her feelings too much.

we could only guessed.

in the end, it will be like gamble.

moon

our dearest moon

brothers

highly reccomended!

respect

it says all

kissing

the passionate kiss.
the remomance.
the eternity.
those days.

legion

the judgement days.
day where you will be judge.

jump

release yourself, jump

lonely road

just when i thought that i have did it.
thenext moment,it was a long hard fall, back to earth.
another long and loney road ahead.

friends

let it go

we have a jog this evening.
although our legs are tired and had cramps, we jogged the longest route.

now we are feeling much better, already.
unlike before,it was so pain that we could not think well.

we have thought too much.thought too far away.
we are lost by our thoughts.

free our minds,then it will free our heart.
let it go. treasure what we have.

what is love

think i finally understand what is love.
it works both way: you love her, can't bear a moment of separation.
the pain of love as well.
you cried for no reasons at all.

you really missed her, really, really.
but you know and you know it cannot be.

the agony,

live life to the fullest

let it all go

life goes on

What is the worse that can happen if the PAP loses 10-20 seats?

Will people really miss those part time PAP MPs with little to say on critical life-affecting issues?

the answer is obvious.

Too many jobs were created which led to an influx of foreigners to fill the positions too fast, too soon.

The momentum has now ground to a halt because of the economic crisis.
But if the pace picks up again, Singaporeans could end up being outnumbered by foreigners in the workplace.

there could be more than three million foreigners working here by 2030, forming half the workforce. That will jump to almost 10 million by 2050, making up 75 per cent of employees here.

It is a frightening leap from the current figure of one million, or 36 per cent of the workforce.

Of the 235,000 jobs added in 2007, six in 10 went to foreigners. The ratio rose last year, with foreigners taking seven in 10 of the 222,000 new jobs.
This means that almost 300,000 foreigners flocked here to take up jobs in the past two years, pushing their population past the one million mark for the first time.

they did not care about you, they care for themselves

in the end, it was ME, ME and ME.

Health Minister Mr Khaw Boon Wan had apologized

on his blog in an entry dated 22 November 2009:

The chemo overdose errors in KKH were human errors. They should not have happened, but they did. We are sorry for the mistakes and are all saddened by the incidents,” he wrote in the opening paragraph.

Mr Khaw also commended the Yip family for their magnanimity in forgiving the two pharmacists responsible for the error.

“We all make mistakes but we must readily admit them and learn from the mistakes so that they do not get repeated.

To err is human; to forgive, divine. To be able to forgive requires a higher level of wisdom and generosity,”

he added.

nothing is heard from KKH CEO Prof Ivy Ng, who is incidentally the wife of Education Minister Dr Ng Eng Hen.

maximise growth at any cost, at the expense of singaporeans

Singapore has the third-largest share of foreign-born persons in its population of any country, after the United Arab Emirates and Kuwait.

It is inevitable that foreigner numbers will continue to swell, but the key is how many the country can accommodate and how fast it wants to grow.

PAP govt had went overboard in trying to maximise growth, at the expense of singaporeans.

For the investments that were brought in, the criteria were more to generate growth.

This has led to more low- skilled and cheaper foreign workers on work permits.

Their presence, in turn, has depressed the salaries of low-skilled Singaporeans.

It is not a new trend, and PAP govt policymakers are aware of it,

government labour reports show that wages of workers such as cleaners and labourers have stayed stagnant or even declined in the past decade, while the wages of higher- skilled workers rose.

Singapore had the biggest gap in both years. It also had one of the fastest widening gaps: In 1996, the top 10 per cent earned 4.9 times the income earned by the bottom 10 per cent; in 2006, that proportion had increased to 5.7.

The PAP govt has not done their job well, people has eyes to see.

cheers to our great leader who made thw wrong policies while they are aware of it.

the need to change

Japan can, why not singapore.
not only for our generation, but the next and the next and the next.

Now is the time to change.

two-thirds of s'pore PR applications are successful

Singapore PAP govt gave PR like free candies..

Deputy Prime Minister and Minister for Home Affairs Mr Wong Kan Seng said in Parliament yesterday that an average of 46,300 people are granted Singaporean permanent resident (PR) status every year for the past eight years.

From 2000 to 2008, an average of 74,500 applications for permanent residency were submitted by foreigners each year. Of these, an average of 46,300 applications were successful which translates to two successful applications out of every three.
MM Lee said earlier that all applications are carefully vetted so that “highly qualified” foreigners will become PRs.

However, some of the new PRs include beauticians, language teachers, clinic assistants and administrative personnel who are not quite considered “qualified” as exemplified by the case of

Chinese national Zhang Yuanyuan who got her PR in only 2 months while working as a Chinese teacher in a private school.

In his reply to Mr Chiam See Tong’s question about the number of PR applications received, granted and PR statuses renounced,

Mr Wong said that PR applications have been increasing steadily in recent years.

As of June this year, there were 1.253 million non-residents, but only 533,000 PRs. In total, foreigners now make up 36 per cent of Singapore’s population, up from 14 per cent in 1990.


An online furore over Chinese national and

Singapore PR Zhang Yuanyuan proclaiming her loyalty to China on TV

was even reported in The Economist.

Despite concerns on the ground at the direction and viability of Singapore’s liberal immigration policy to import foreigners en masse to make up for the population shortfall here,

the ruling party is adamant that there will be no wholesale changes to it.

In the past, immigrants were concentrated at the top or bottom of the jobs ladder, performing work that Singaporeans could not or did not want to do.

Today, foreigners compete on almost every rung. Some, like geneticists, bring in useful skills. Others—it is feared—displace local skills and depress wages at the bottom.

PRs enjoy the benefits of citizenship without all the responsibilities, such as national service for men (first-generation PRs are generally exempt).

High immigration has coincided with a widening income gap. Singapore’s Gini coefficient, a measure of inequality, rose from 0.444 in 2000 to 0.481 in 2008—higher than in China and America.

it was the latest sign of resentment towards incomers and evidence that immigration is becoming the city-state’s dominant political issue.

they did not care about people and aimed for economic growth at all cost,including downgrading singapore citizen to play second fiddle to PR.

cheers to our great leaders.

nightmare

one of our Favourite Tim Burton's movies.

they are liars

In the past, immigrants were concentrated at the top or bottom of the jobs ladder, performing work that Singaporeans could not or did not want to do.

Today, foreigners compete on almost every rung. Some, like geneticists, bring in useful skills. Others—it is feared—displace local skills and depress wages at the bottom.

our great leader told us that they will create jobs for us.
in the end, we are played out by them.

they are liars.

social unrest : can we all get along?

In 1990, citizens made up 86% of Singapore’s 3m people.
Today, the share is 64% of 5m-odd. More than one in three people are foreigners (permanent residents, known as PRs, and non-residents).

In the past, immigrants were concentrated at the top or bottom of the jobs ladder, performing work that Singaporeans could not or did not want to do.

Today, foreigners compete on almost every rung. Some, like geneticists, bring in useful skills. Others—it is feared—displace local skills and depress wages at the bottom.

PRs enjoy the benefits of citizenship without all the responsibilities, such as national service for men (first-generation PRs are generally exempt).

High immigration has coincided with a widening income gap. Singapore’s Gini coefficient, a measure of inequality, rose from 0.444 in 2000 to 0.481 in 2008—higher than in China and America. The contrast between the glitzy downtown and the “heartlands” is glaring, and more damaging in tiny, dense Singapore than it would be in a big country

And the dominance of the ruling People’s Action Party means that in Singapore—unlike many countries—anti-immigrant sentiment cannot easily gain a strong political voice.

Expect no drastic policy changes.

it was the latest sign of resentment towards incomers and evidence that immigration is becoming the city-state’s dominant political issue.

cheers to great leaders for their good policies.

they did not care

so what they said..not a big deal.

the higher earners pay is peanuts

they want the casino because of themselves

these casinos are not built to benefit ordinary Singaporeans.
the govt will gain huge revenue from the casino revenue.

they will leave the churches, volunteers and social workers to cope with the problem(shit) it generates.


that's how they did the things!

cheers to our great leaders.

space 1999

the TV series which we used watched ..

protrait of the monster

handsome but he was series of cold-blooded killer.

like politicians, they are no differences between him and them.

they are the same.

the price of happiness

"Cheaper, better, and faster "....its the same old story. The last time they promised Swiss cheese if we worked harder and faster but this time they don't even bother to promise anything.
All they can say is we will get to keep our jobs to service our HDB debts if we can keep up with their system.

first things we asked ourselves: despite our 3rd quarter of 15% growth, did we get the share? are we happier now or then?

they said we are choosy of the jobs, they told us foreigners would not take away your jobs. they said that the foreigners would create jobs in return.

they gave PR like free candies and when they became so big, and create problems, they asked us to solve their shit for what they created in the first place.

can you believe them?

not anymore.

the buck stops here.





all lies and more lies.

quake strike twice in indonesia

the price of S'pore PR

zero loyalty

Argentina through the world cup 2010

For those who didn't believe in this team, for those who treated me like shit, today we are in the World Cup,"

"That's it, we've suffered, but we've made it", said Veron calmly after the match. "From the President of AFA to the last player, we all want to see a better team. Working it out together, there are a lot of things we can improve on"

market plunge

it is coming.

vietnam bride

wonder why singaporeans choose Vietnam brides?

harmony with new immigrant singaporeans

UBS survey shows Singapore slipping in standard of living

In a nutshell, it showed that Singapore is ranked as one of the world's more expensive cities to live in, but people here earn only middling wages.
The result is that our purchasing power is far from sterling.
Compared to the last time the survey was carried out, in 2006, it also shows a worsening trend.



Our economy is to be one where we have an extraordinary gap between the powerful and the powerless, even by Asian standards -- countries not known for soft-hearted socialism.

Average wages for Singapore as a whole are pulled down the city rankings because our low-paid are so lowly paid.
why? influx of foreigners.

Meanwhile, one suspects that our prices seem to be kept up not so much by labour costs but by profit-taking and the government's share.

With the resulting degradation of purchasing power, one can then ask:

Is the average Singaporean really having it so good?

integrate with foreigners

Now we know where we stand

confirmed: singaporeans played second fiddle to the foreigners

Of course, it does not really surprise me.

For years, Singapore has been moving steadily in the pro-foreigner / anti-citizen direction.

Another writer said: “Now we know where we stand. The policy has downgraded Singaporeans to below foreigners.”

we're not the only country in the world with stupid politicians. Each of us just needs to find a way to move on, adapt and survive - notwithstanding the government's errors.

No point complaining about it.
Just take the PAP as another challenge in life you need to overcome.

Take your small, steady steps to deal with it.

people before profit?actually it was the reverse

Japanese Govt Ban "Amakudari"

descent from heaven.
the japanese praticed that, they are not alone.
singapore also have the same policy of allowing top civil servants when they retired, they will chaired as one of our statuary boards.

they have done it, why not singapore?

the moment of TRUTH

we wonder when politician stood for the reality show,"the moment of truth", how much that they stand to "win" and "strengthened" the ties with the people.
we wonder.

refresh

Search: National captain Noh Alam Shah slams local football

Singapore football captain Noh Alam Shah has slammed Singapore football, saying it is stagnant.
also, the referee standards has also gone down
third, poor attendances at S.League matches.each match averaging 2,500 while in indonesia it was 30,000.

four, the prize monies in indonesia is far bigger than in singapore.

lastly,good players have been left out of the league because of the Football Association of Singapore's insistence on them passing the beep or fitness test.


he is the brave soul who told the truth.
welcome to the dream of ex-FAS chairman that singapore to be competing in 2010 world cup

Speak Good English Movement

speak simple English: make it simple

world economy

long u shaped

let them win

health care: step down care

back to square one

: you have to take care of your elder parents by yourself.