still

many things have happened recently.
colleagues have been leaving one by one, and soon the group is broken into pieces and from the things we have seen, it will become nothing in the end.
well, we have encouraged our colleague to take the leap as we have seen and heard from her that she has not been compensated for the efforts she has placed for the past year.
she did not have the share option after she has submitted.
and she has been working for 6 years and got minimum increments.

it is sad to see someone with us for the past few years and suddenly she is gone to other places.
soon, another colleague will be leaving.
alas.

it's been a long while

it's been a long while since we wrote.
actually there are many things happened during this period.
and we learnt that we have to change our attitude.
we could not see our mistakes, but others could.

and we knew that we cannot be stubborn, anymore and accept the truth

a year later Part II

we have found pieces of notes which we have travelled to malaysia during LNY last year,2010.
it was the beginning of the difficult days and we have no idea how tough it was, until we reached the point.
well, as we laughed at ourselves on the days we cried, sobbed and angry, it was extremely difficult to get rid of the things once it was inside our heart.

but we did, and came out to a changed, new person, indeed.

a year later

time passes quickly and it is already a year.
when we glanced back the difficult days, we can laughed at ourselves and our obsessions in carrying on the relationship, knowing it has no real ending.
so, our valentine day became a sad day, not only for us and her as well.

a year later, we did not speak each other and she had her old Indian boyfriend who will be her 2nd husband. she was separated and had two teenagers.

on the hindsight, why did we get into this mess in the first place?
love.

the pleasure of love last for a moment.

changes

when the things exist, it will change forever, just like love.
when the things do not exist, it do not change.
just like our heart, it will stay the same, yesterday, today and forever.

when things change, our hearts change as well.
that was in the past, and now we have also change.
when things change, our hearts did not change.

a new beginning

a brand new year,
the best year yet to be, and
every year is the best year, no matter what had happened, we still smiled.
whether in times of difficulty or happier times.
and we did not give a damn about it,anymore.

future

looking back, Part VIIII

we have promised and it is done, finished and come to past, much to our relief and surprises that it ended so quickly.
we have assumed we may have to continue further and further.

and we counted ourselves fortunate to leave the relationship when we sense it did not worked out. we have many conflicts and they are simply unreasonable.

now we knew, and we knew and we knew how tough a relationships could go.
not an easy matter, alas.

here we are, letting go of yesterday and moving on to the future, cherishing the present precious moments we have.

what's more can we say?

Looking back, Part VIII

it is good.
we have set up a goal to help a girl from her married boyfriend and also finding her a good boyfriend.
she had finally found one for herself.
and we are really glad that she has finally got over it and move on.
alas.
for us, we have started a year ago to help her and now our task was compeleted.
it is finished.

when we learnt about it, it was bitter-sweet. we felt that we are being set free, liberated and our chains are gone.
but at the same time, our heart ached, but still it was a good news.

things finally turned around, for the better.
when she was with a married boyfriend, we have agreed to help her and never in our mind it would last a year or even more.
never had we pondered, but we took up the tasks as our promise.

now, it is done, and the things have come to past.
it is good.

we have set up things for her and after we have heard and saw the things, we have deactivated them.
well, we will missed her, indeed, and we told ourselves we have to let it go and move on.
Nothing is impossible.

Looking back, Part VII

again, it had been a tough year in 2010.
we liked to proceed with the renovation of the our flat as the cost was cheaper then.
singapore just recovered from economy crisis in 2009 and things are not as expensive.

just when we started, the leaking problem became the biggest problem.
we have done all the procedures, and awaiting for our tenant above our floor to start doing her toilet.
we assumed it can be solved in a few weeks.
but little did we expect her to drag till 7 months later.

all our plans are ruined by this simple problem.
alas.

Looking back, Part VI

and there are many problems, too.
our mother, the maid and mother was not happy with the maid.
many conflicts, arguments.
many headaches as well.

working place.
new boss. new system.
then our dearest colleague was caught sleeping on the job and bonus was forfeited.
alas.

Looking back, Part V

we learned a valuable lesson.
and we knew that we have to go through the process.
despite of the things happened, we still not affected by the incident and still walking the same old narrow path.
we did not changed, or swayed.
we just let it and move on.
it will not great to have her as we found out the truth and did not really know about her.
that was our biggest mistakes.
we just assumed that she was the one.
and we suffered greatly.
and it should not be happened in the first place.

Looking back, Part IV

yes, we have to admit that we fell in love for the first time, and in the beginning, we are so sure of it and thinking of marrying her.(we laughed at our silliness, such naive thoughts)
well, in the end, it was just our own imagination.
and our own assumptions.
when we kissed her on that day, we still felt the pain in our heart, longing to be with her, but we knew it was not right somewhere.
something funny, something amiss.

short pain is better than long pain.
we decided to let it go.

and we did not know it was the painful period during those time.
alas.

Looking back, Part III

the old and the new.
with the setting of 2010, and the dawning of 2011, a new page has turned.
we would not have assumed that it has happened, but it did.
we did not believed that we would fall, but we did.
we did not see the unseen things and glad that they have revealed in front of our eyes.
alas.

we have been stubborn.
yes. and we learnt from our stubborness.

Looking back, Part II

no matter what has happened in 2010, our hearts is still the same, as ever.
and still we are walking the same, old and narrow path we have first stepped.
it is still the same old us.

we are glad that we are still breathing the very air that support our lives and never, ever took things for granted.

it has been so and will be so at present, and in the future.
the past had long gone, leaving a trails of numerous things behind.
we picked some, discarded some, and kept those are good things.

looking back, a review of 2010

2010 had been a fantastic year.
could have been better, but many things have brought us down.
our right ankle and left knee cap.
we have been climbing hills to pick the ripe durians and coincidently injured our legs.
we took 3-4 months to heal, and at the present moment, it still hurt and we knew it will be a long road to full recovery.

another thing: love life. we have fallen in love and also fallen out of love.
however it is good. she was not meant to be in the first place and we are glad that it was all over between us and her.
short pain is better than long pain.

therefore, we told us not to be easily fall, yet again.

May the new year be the BEST YEAR Yet and this year is the best year.
Oh, YES!

an old man

we have been staying in the same area for 27 years and met many familiar faces.
this morning was no particular.
he always worn t-shirt and shorts and took a seat at the void deck when i was surfing interent.
the last time when i met him, he was in good shape, it meant that he did not have any scars and his face was healthy looking.
however when we saw him this morning, there are two or three red scars on his left lower neck area.
he has became old then, and from the way he changed, it is not a good thing.
things always change, and i have accept the fact that he has grown old.

well, that is life.

happy new year

on the road, again.

after hearing what our fellow colleagues' situations, we understood that things changed eternally.
so, we will be on the road, yet again.
really will be missing our dearest colleagues.