thought III

i have seen something shocking recently.
i have seen her walking anxiously with the head tilted low and spoke to one of our male colleagues.
it was one of the strangest smile that she worn on her face fascinated us.
she was flirting with him,although she was a mother of two.
amazing.
such a lowly woman.
disgusting.

i do not know she really liked her perferred races other than her own.
now i know, at least it is not too late.

i may called myself a fool, but in fact, i laughed at myself at my stupil error and my trusts in her.
she has taught me a excellent lesson.
she likes to use man as her means and she has many boyfriends although she was married.
alas.

CHC: a New Chapter

i believe after the latest saga, City Harvest Church will take a different path,a new direction.
and a new chapter.

thought II

i feel like tearing my clothes.
i feel like ripping my chest, grab my heart.

auughhh..

i was really sad when the things get tougher and harder.
no one to talk, just myself.
those dark days.

when i glanced back those painful days now, i feel like laughing, smiling away.
yes, we did it.
oh! yes!

so, instead of carrying a sad faces in times of darkest valley and difficulties, the only i can do is to smile back.
just smile and everything will change.
cheers!

a thought.

when i heard a very old song,"are you lonesome tonight?" my heart is full of empptiness.
just as the song lyric.
i am hoping the things will change, change for the better.

but i know it will not be possible.
as both of our hearts are dead.

we are just like total strangers.

loner

loner.
choice or destiny.
i simply had no answer.
just lived with it.
be contented with what i have at present.

i have been thinking of getting a wife, but i knew there will be a price that i have to pay.
something got to give.
this, make me uncomfortable and i am going on,like the usual.
as i have been living like this for so many years,

the recent heartaching breakup was just an excuse, i knew.

however, when there is an opportunity, i will seize it as i knew it will never come back, again.

have been thinking lately and certain things are clear-cut that i needed not to think too much.

case closed.

i am trying not to think too much, talk too much as i discover many things which i do not fully aware of them,only until recently.

it has been a eye opener,but i forget it, let it go and move on.

flood in orchard road:back to future?welcome the sixties

remember the sixties?
where we have floods often and the monsoon drains would flood to knee-high level.
i recalled seeing one person mistaken the drain as a pavement and fell.
he was totally wet.

forty years later, we still see the same thing.
this time in orchard road.
it is like seeing our past.

welcome to the sixties..

Greed: The Seven Deadly Sins

Do you wish to acquire more and more?
Do you covet what others have but you do not?
Are you ambitious to have more money or material goods?
In short, are you greedy?

it is not a tiny you but the companies that have the monopoly of the services jacked up the charges before the world cup 2010, just to earn as much as possible as she knew that there will be great demand.

she also blocked access to other countries's channel.
just to ensure at least 100% profit not for the shareholder but the top managments themselves.

Greed: The Seven Deadly Sins

China’s labour market at a turning-point

the tide has turned.
the turning point of cheap labour in china.
as the chinese govt did not suppress the large pay increment, she has given the workers to right to get pay rises.
as china is world's manufacturer, it will affect not only just herself, but the rest of the world.

we will see the great tide has finally turn, finally at last.

suffering

when i went through tough times, i treated them as an opportunities.
rather than difficultied as i knew a true person will emerge not under comfortable environment but intense pressures and stresses from all angles.

it is tough, it is hard.
for me, i just smiled at it, and even laughed.

years later when i recalled them, i treated it as a joke.
as something make a change in me for larger capacities to stomach those tough times, and longer fuse not to eaily imploded when things went awry, as they always.

sure, talking is easy, but i know, once i placed in writing, i will carry it no matter how tough it is.

advice to young gals

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is...
constantly reminding you of how much he cares
And how lucky and fortunate that he is to have YOU.

where is singapore?

world cup 2010 has just began its first match.
it was South Africa against mexico.

we have heard that one minister told us that singapore will be in 2010 world cup.
but where is singapore?
ask him..

agony

one picture tells a thousand words.

when i does many good things for others, i do not expect returns or flavours.
i am just help them to solve their problems.
that is all.

but i do not expect them to betray me in the end, and do the unthinkable things.
alas.

that's life.

i have to accept people is not perfect as i have assumed to be.
i have been walking on narrow path, and still follow the same path despite the change of environment, despite of many things.

it is hard, but i follow the nature way.

tears

after what he has done for the people, and yet people despised him.
even totally shamed him.
that was just too much, but people kept on hammering at him.
when he has done so many good things, there was no arugument.
but when things started to get out of hand, there are finger pointing at him and his dark side.

this is unfair.

but we know that is life.
when you are down with accusations, you have to dig your deepest heart and soul, and have a good fight.
it is easy to give up, but when all the things gone to past, it tasted sweet when one recalled those tough times.

so, let's get going and not to stop too long.

durian seasons

i have jogged this morning and since it was still early, i went to the forest to check the durians trees.
i am thinking that the durians maybe ripe next month, but i am wrong.
they have already started to drop.
it is a surprise as i have assumed it will take sometime and also the weather was erratic for the past few weeks.

however, for the first batch that the durians dropped, i did not expected too much as i knew that they are not ripe yet, but dropped.
so, for the next few weeks i will be going there often.

a better person

after i have underwent a series of incidents, only then i realized that the things i have perferred was just nearby, within reach of my hands.
and i have been searching far away for the things, little did i realized that i have missed many things i have taken for granted.
alas.

life's that.
when the things are gone, i beganto treasure them,but it was already too late then.

that is why i took time off for myself and pondered the things which i have at present and cherished them.
before they are gone, forever.

poor harvest

few weeks ago, i have taken a walk round the forest nearby to check this year's harvest of the durians.

last year, 2009 saw a bumper harvest despite the economic downturns.
i can see the baskets and basket of durians when the season was in full swing.

after the walk, i was extremly disappointed with the findings:
2010 will be one of the worst harvest i have ever seen in years to come.
it is very bad,indeed.

i have asked one of working colleagues who normally picked durians and his remarks are same as mine.

don't expect too much this year.

dream

i used to dream a lot.
i am a dreamer too.
i like to live in my fantasy world.
but i know that the world outside me is the most hostile place on earth.
i have to face the truth, the real facts.

許冠傑 - 浪子心聲

one of favourite songs of all times

4 months later: Part II

yes..it has been 4 months.
and time really heals the wound.
i have felt no pain, just cherishing those wonderful memories.

now i know that i have been naive all along the while.
the world has not changed since then.

it is difficult to see through the real and fake.
people are also difficult to differentiate too.

everyone says they are right, no one will admit that they are wrong.

but for me, when things have come to past,i rather preferred not to ponder too much about the past.
just cherish the present, the moment i am still breathing, the very air.

4 months later

at first, i do speak to her.
but as days passed, i came to realize that we have a great difference in our character.
we have arguments, and i decided that i should end the relationship once and for all.
in the beginning, i have an awful feelings as i found out more and more about her.

thus, i quickly pulled myself out from the relationship.
it has been painful and i just could not figure out the reasons.

then came the real truth.
the cold hard truth.

that my trusted colleagues betrayed me in the end.
i have been too trusting.
alas.

at present, i do not like to see her at all, and do not talk to her for a long, long time.
it is good, though.