life is short,

make your life simple.
just by watching the beautiful sky after jogging was one of the simple things i used to do.
it make me realized that life is beautiful and there is someone watching over you, taking care of you.

money cant buy happines

white hair

i have my hair cut once a month.
normally before i went to barber, i would like to cut the white hairs.
last time, there are less, but as i grew older, the white hairs became more and more that i have stop cutting off the white hairs.
now there are countless of white hairs all over our hairs.

people have commented on dyeing the hair, but when we bought them, and mixed them together, the smell was pungent that i decided not to proceed.
i wondered how people would stand the smell.

vagabond

like a wind, i am going to anywhere.
i am a dreamer, just a simple person with simple dreams.

let it all go

love is over

i should not have tell anyone about the girl whom i love.
here, i learned my lesson well.
in the end, love is over.
i have to face the fact, accept it and move on.
then, my heart will be at peace.

feelings

really could feel her happiness in her heart when i smiled at her and she smiled back.
for just few seconds, i could feel her inner joys, delight and cheerful.

the one

in the beginning i am losing.
i know that i will have no chance.
and i knew it.
still, i proceed on.
i am a stubborn person.
like the one whom i loved, i fell in love, yet again.
although i do not know her well.
love really blinded people.
when i was really went deep with her, i have doubts and ended the relationships.

certainly, i do not know what will happen next.
i do not have any idea.
of course, i do hope that there will be a good ending.
that is my dream.
in my dreams.

however, i have face the reality, accept the truth so that my heart will be at peace and calm.
and move on.

choose others but not me

choose him, not me

choose him, not me.
choose him as your lifelong companion.
with tears in my eyes and heartache, i must pretend that it never happened.

i am so dumb

no wonder people told me that i did not have any chance.
now i know.

wake up call

i have been living in our own dream.
i have been dreaming all along the while.
a wake up call, indeed

promise

i have promised to give her a bottle of perfume.
and i will give her.

be free

set ourselves free.
set ourselves free from the desires.

calm before the storm

destiny

what's choice do i have?
is it destiny?
i do not know.
i do not know where it will be heading.
i just do not know.

Falling in love, yet again

I never planned to fall in love with her, helplessly.
It just happened, and we always went against our heart and in the end, things come to pass.
The last time we fell in love, it occurred.
Now I knew that we fell in love, yet again.
Alas.
It comes so naturedly that we are not conscious of it until I told myself to let her go.
By then, it was just too late.
Things transpired for some reasons.
For a brief moment such as this, I would like to take a break and fortunately, that she was working three afternoon shifts. I shall not see her soon.

It is good.
At least I have some breathing space over the series of events unfolding last week have been traumatic. Dramatic and heart pounding.

follow your heart

how wrong i am!
i have to admit that i am totally wrong.
in the end, she is the one.
yes.

she is the one, indeed.

i have almost missed an opportunity that once comes, it would never return back.
from these incidents, i knew that i have to follow my heart.
it always tells the truth.
always when something happened did i realized that i have seized the chance, the only chance i have.

so, just follow your heart.

somehow i will find the way, the right way to happiness in life.

she

she is not the one

after much thinking and pondering, i have decided to let go her, indeed.
it is not an easy decision.
i am also not no more young and knew that once the chance passes by, i may not have the same anymore.
alas.
over the years later, when i glanced back over my shoulders, i still make the same decision and will not regret.
like's like this, anyway.
of course, i am reluctantly let go her.
she is not the one.

let it all go

i remembered asking people to let it all go, but now i have to tell myself to let it go, too.
i found myself falling in love again, and from the start, i knew i have to let her go, even though i really likes her very much.
life is like that.
still, there are today to live, hopes for tomorrow.
i shall let her go and move on.

don't give up

never, never give up

talking

after i have recorded and found that my style of talking sucks!
i needed to change and slow down the speed and to improve my speech.

love

just one simple reason: because of you.

the turning point

after working for so many years in one company, i realized that i could not just let it go.
i have found another position and awaiting for the second interview next week.
as i pondered on the departure, i was sad that i have to leave the place i have been working for the past 5 years.
things have changed and things are getting worse from bad.
alas.
working hours have changed from 12-hours shift of 3 rest days to 3-rotating shift of 1 rest day.

furthermore, many things have happened which changed my mindset.

i am the same on the first day and same as it is now.

life is fair

it is not what people can do for you, but rather what you can do for people!

girl

me, i,myself

lonely.
after countless of attempts, i have to accept the fact that i will lonely for the rest of my life.
i need a companion, but i knew it cannot be forced upon.
let things move naturally.
i must not be stubborn, too.

also,it is good to be alone.
less problems, and importantly, free.
i have freedom which i cherishes.

a passerby

we are just a passerby in this world.
we are here for a short period of time, full filled our promises and responsibilities.
then we will be gone forever.

life is unfair

Life can be unfair...
It's what you do with the unfairness and how it matters...


You won't become successful by complaining that life is unfair. Certainly there are many injustices in the world, yet you won't get anywhere by using those injustices as excuses.

Your best response is to work over, under, around and through them. Accept the fact that life is unfair, and choose to experience outstanding success anyway.

It is admirable to fight against injustice. But fighting against injustice may very well make that injustice even stronger.

A better way to end injustice is to make it irrelevant. When you create ways for yourself and others to succeed in spite of unfair circumstances, then you render those circumstances powerless.



The world is filled with inequity and unfairness.



And yet, there are always plenty of workable and creative ways to rise above those negative circumstances.
When something in life is unfair, choose to succeed anyway.


And make that unfairness so small and insignificant it won't even matter.

lust

tempted.
such desires to touch someone when we are close to her.
and to kiss her red and soft lips.

Revenge is a dish best served cold

Old saying from the Mafiosi in Sicily.

Tells that the best payback is the one that comes with planning, and that brings the most horrendous pain to your enemies when they are not expecting and are just enjoying the fruits of all the dishonor they brought upon you.

One must wait so he can really inflict pain to those who wronged him.

Careful planing is necessary so your enemies will suffer terribly, but you won't be harmed by the Law or by your enemies' allies.

we are wrong

sad to say, we are wrong.
we did not handle the things correctly in the beginning.
and it resulted in many problems later on.
we have many arguments.
after sister has explained to us, we learned from experience.
nothing to be shame about it.

let it go and move on.

the kiss

i still remembered the kiss with her.
i love the kiss.
before that, i do not realize the significance.
when i kiss her, i feel that the intimate between her and me.
such feeling was marvelous.

no wonder people are tempt to kiss someone.

it has not been easy

last year has been a tough year.
i have injuries on my right ankle and could not jog for a year.
i changed to walking instead.
i walked and walked and walked for two to three hours.
things have changed but my heart has not.
it is still the same, yesterday, today and tomorrow.

that year, i also gave up the girl i loved and as days passed, i realized that she was not the one.
i have not been in love that deep before, and realized the complications.
now i do know.

no matter what has happened, come what may.

single

guessed that i will be single.
of course, i do love company, someone to share our joys and tears.
but i just cannot find the right one.
at my age, it will even difficult and tough.
alas.
guess that i have to give up hope, accept the fact and move on

lifei

i thought that life is purely simple.
just do whatever it takes, but in the end, god has the higher ways than me.
alas.
i have long began to trust in Him more and ever more.
life is like that.

accidental?

when i missed the train and boarded the second train, little did i expect to meet someone who has just left.
i have missed the train, and was able to meet her.
when i boarded the first train i would have missed her.

accidental?
god's plan

man biggest consolation

man biggest consolation:
a pat on the back and telling you have done a great job.
well done, man.
and always there are no one to just say to you, after you have gone through tough and difficult patches..

crying

felt like crying

let it go

i have always told people to let it go.
but it is me who should let it go,instead.
sadly speaking, i do not let it go and hold on.
alas.
i know and i know.
now, i tell myself," Let iT go!"

fade away

old staff will fade away and be forgotten

trust no one

clinky

do not expect to meet her younger sister, who was different from her.
really, frankly speaking, it was a great surprise to see her in person.
totally not the same from her pictures.

after she arrived here, got to see her after she worked for three days.
and noted that she has lots of pimples on her forehead.

desire

desire lead to more desires which will never be satisfied.
this will cause pains and sorrow.
one poor young girl who desire to study went to foreign country to work.
she need money to study.
she was introduced by her fellow country person, but little did she suspect that she will be selling her bodies..
desires, desires and desires.

stress

lately we have string of series of stresses.
tough.
and we talked when we dream, too.

we have to relax, slow down and enjoy the fun.
be free!

tough

it is tough.
tough to adjust not 3 but 4-rotating shift for 3 months.
previously we worked four 12-hours shift and three off days.
now we have only a day and it was after our night shift.
alas.

joy of running

calm

my heart is calm like mirror in the lake.

contented