when she did not responded to our calls and sms, i was really confused and angry at the same time.
instead of thinking too much at home, i went for an evening jog.
a long and slow one, to clear our thoughts and our mind.
it has been a different jog each time we moved past the trees and smell the fragnance of the forest.
by the end of jog, i have realized i have forgiven her for what she has done for us throughout the day.
it also must have hurt her too as much as i did.
alas.
i was so wrong. i made numerous mistakes that i was awore of it and did not take note of it. i was so ignorant.
in the end,i knew something, something was amiss, something was not right somewhere.
i found ourselves being hurt over and over.
i simply did not know what has happened.
i have not experienced before. such pains, helplessnes and agonies.
i have found ourselves lost and being under control.
i could not move what i usually did.
now that i have let go,i found myself back what i was supposed.
at long last, i have been a fool for those day that i did not know.
alas.
no matter what has happened,i have encough of pain.
it was not supposed to be like that.